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Write about Depression

Write about Depression

 

Write about Depression

            I decided to write about depression. I fear to many people can relate to the feeling of being depressed. The deciding factor in writing about this was a dream I had last night. In the dream I was traveling with my family.

We were in some tropical location and we were all in the hotel room getting ready to go to the beach. Then once every one was ready my parents announced that it was time to head out. In the dream I replied “I can’t, I’ll stay in the room… I just need to be alone.”  In the dream the beach represented happiness and my family were all ready to go there. But I felt I couldn’t make it. I had pretended to be happy this whole time. But to be surrounded by people having a good time and enjoying the beach made me feel the weight of the lie that I was happy. I was not and I could not and would not bring the family vacation down by feeling depressed. So I chose to isolate myself. So what if I couldn’t feel happiness in the moment I would not drag everyone else down.

When I woke I knew it would be one of those days of doom and gloom. Usually my dreams are an escape from the sadness of depression. Now the depression had even spread to my dreams. There was no escape or rest. On days like this when I know the level of depression is a 7/10 I remind myself that if today is the hard day then tomorrow will be easier it has to be. With that I turn the day into a challenge, survive. That’s the mission. Don’t Isolate yourself, that will just make things worse. Reach out and contact someone you haven’t talked to in a while, text, phone or in-person. What’s the worst that could happen.

The next step is to come up with a routine. Remember the work you did the day before and try to build on it. Start project keep your mind active. You just might forget your depressed and have some fun while you’re at it.

I’m not going to lie, this is my second year with depression. But I learned how to fight back. I know the lies depression feeds the mind. It tells you, you don’t belong. It would be better if you weren’t there. It’s all lies, none of it is true. So challenge the lie, confront it. This may be my second year of feeling depressed. But it’s also been one of my most productive years. Don’t give depression an inch, because it will take it, and it won’t stop there.

Try and pretend to be happy, do happy things. You just might accidently have fun. Once you do, hold on to that feeling. The break from sadness. Remember there are good days, and they are  coming.

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